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Hey Blog,

I did not focus on my diet or fitness. I was sad I did not get that job, and it kind of rolled into a big ball of sadness. I got sucked down.

But my partner has been really supportive. We went to the Washington State Fair (Puyallup Fair as it is known here), we had a BBQ with all our friends, and spent time with his sister, brother in law, and children.
Everyone has been so supportive of me.

I am working on getting back on track. My sister is coming over to work on her resume, LinkedIn, and other job search stuff. Sometimes getting out of your own house will help you get more work done, so she is coming over here. I am glad for the company, and will also work on my own job hunt.

Just need to focus on the good things I have going on in my life.

I weighed in this morning at 233. Bummer. I can lose it again. But it sure doesn't look very good. Not actually losing weight is not going to make this blog super motivating to others is it? At the same time, if I am not honest with myself and my blog, then what am I doing?

My goal is to lose weight consistently over the next four weeks. Then I will start leaving comments on the other weight loss blogs I read, and start trying to get mine read by people other then family and friends. See if we can make this really work.

Monday Morning Measurements

230!

So I did not add anything to my midweek weigh in. That is okay. I had family in town this weekend, so I ate out. I was alone in the apartment, and house sitting for a family who has an elderly cat. This means my week was sort of odd. I think I didn't eat enough breakfast and lunch, and then it was hard to eat a healthy dinner.

It's good to look back and see what I can improve on. It is also good to lose a pound, better than nothing!

How to Get My Life in Shape

I am bored.

My partner is gone for the weekend. He's on a trip with college friends. I am happy for him, though I am feeling a bit at loose ends.

I have been bored. Even when I am quilting or doing other things I enjoy. It's nice that I am losing weight, but I really need to get a job. I can't stand it when I think of all the time I have "wasted" watching TV or surfing the internet this last year and a half.

It really makes me so anxious I feel sick.

That doesn't do any good though. I can't take back the last  year and a half I have been unemployed. All I can do is move on with my life. Get my life in shape. Losing weight and getting physically fit is a great start. It gets easier to stay on track, and improve my health. Now I really need to make a concerted effort to get myself a job.

Ugh. Stressful.

Mid Week Weigh In Cheat

I have never been obsessed with the scale. I did watch my sister go through some of that during her weight loss process though, and have been trying to avoid the same happening to me.

Today I cheated and weighed in mid week.

It was awesome!

As you may have read I had disappointing news at the beginning of the week, so eating healthy has been a bit more of a challenge. Getting that validation from the scale that I have been doing things right was a huge boost. I think it will really encourage me to keep it up, and stay on a healthy path the rest of this week. I am only down one pound, but by the end of the week I can make it more.

So yay!

Take that encouragement wherever you can get it.

Frizzy and Encouraged! Ignore the awkward body language going on in this photo

Bad News but Not Eating

I found out that I did not get that job I interviewed for a week ago. I sort of figured, since I had not heard anything yet. I was hoping that with the holiday weekend it had just gotten away from them. But I asked today, and was told they went with another candidate.

I am really disappointed.

But I am not going to eat. I know it won't really hep. It might make me feel better for a few hours, by helping me ignore my feelings. If I just let myself feel disappointed now, and focus on activities that are healthy and make me feel good, I will be able to recover faster and move on to the next thing.

In the past following through on my own advice was hard. The more times I try, the easier it gets. I think today will be an okay day. I will be healthy.

Frizzy and is making room in my calorie count for a beer today 

Monday Morning Measurements

231.3

Exactly the same weight as last week, even down the tenth of a pound.

I am okay with that. I had a job interview and subsequent total freak out. It was also a holiday weekend.

I did okay.

This week I will focus on being thorough in my food journal. I will post some recipes of things I am making, with calorie count. It will be a success.

Happy Labor Day and International Workers Day! Thank a union member!