Today is the 9th!

9 days, no working out, oh crap!

But I hosted Sophia's going-away-from-Mud-Bay-party. We only had healthy foods. We had weight watchers approved lasagna cupcakes, sweet potato fries, onigiri (Japanese rice balls, not really healthy, but a little white rice isn't horrible either) and lower fat cupcakes. It was so yummy. I had a really pleasant time. I did think about wanting to have more energy, and not feel self conscious in front of my friends, new and old.

I need to let that thought motivate me.

Measurments

Here is my starting point right now

Weight: 223.8

Bust: 44 in
Waist: 40 in
Pantline: 47 in
Thighs: 50 in
Arms: 13 in

Healthy food today : Oatmeal for breakfast. One cup of coffee. Whole wheat toast with eggs, salsa and cabbage. Tuna salad, fruit and veggies for dinner.
Walking to the bus stop to go to work.
Didn't make time to work out though. I have got to improve upon that.

HAPPY NEW YEAR

Happy New Year!

I have not worked out this year. Four days lost! But my eating habits have improved.

I have been struggling with a lot of feelings. I don't think I am getting depressed. But I am struggling. This makes working out and eating better much harder. I have been laying in bed reading all day today. Which in some ways has been very rewarding, but also did improve my mood or my record so far this year in taking care of myself. I started the final book of The Dark Tower series by Steven King, The Dark Tower. It was just as fantastic, odd and heart wrenching as the first time I read it.

So, if I feel overwhelmed and sad, I need to fake it 'till I make it.

Sorry though, it has made for a really boring blog so far. Tomorrow morning I will post my weight and measurements. A starting place.

Long days and pleasant nights.