Emotional eating

I really didn't think that emotional eating was a problem for me. I knew that I did eat when I was emotional. But I thought that it was totally under my control and I could stop whenever I wanted. Turns out this is more of an issue than I had thought it was. That is why I put those six pounds right back on, and then avoided blogging because I was embarrassed. When I am emotional I want to eat food that tastes good, not always junk food. I also lose the willpower to cook. That is a big one. If I can find the resolve to cook something that will satisfy me, it is often healthier than what I might buy. I gave up counting calories the last few weeks as well, and quit weighing myself, since I knew I bounced right back up to 230 like I always do.

So.

I think I am doing better. Talking about it in a way that is supportive and creative helps. Usually my inner critic gets very loud, and then I feel worse, and want to eat more. I also start the cycle where I have a bad day, so the next day doesn't matter, and I don't work out or eat well. Instead of beating myself up I need to remember that every healthy meal or workout does count. I can build on those good experiences.

My kitchen has been super messy, my partner and I finally have all the dishes done. But the fridge is empty. So for the me the first step is buying some healthy food that I know I like. The other goal is to start counting calories again, even if I am way over my goal.